May Post

I can hardle believe May came and is almost gone.  School is coming to a close and the adventures of summer are soon to be here.  WE ARE MOVING -yet AGAIN!!!  It happened so quickly that I don't know where to begin.  About a week ago I was struggling with my Education Path. I have always wanted to finish. Many know I come from a sea of educators and the guilt has run straight through my veins. Nonetheless, I am still plugging away. I keep telling myself I am doing this for my children. I don't believe you need a degree to get a good job or even live the American dream.  Kyle has proven that over and over again. But he and I both are on our crusade to set an example for our children and follow the Prophets counsel of getting an education.

I was really struggling with what to pursue my degree in. I may or not ever need it and I knew I did NOT want to be a teacher. I started out with a Sociology degree and then moved to Psychology. I really degraded myself often because I thought that I needed to learn more about me and I could do this through a Psychology degree without going to a therapist. But I came to know about me was I don't need therapy as much as I had thought. I think I am pretty okay despite the family politics.

I also am at a crossroads because my online courses are done.  I took all that I could and I really can't take anymore and that leads me to the scariest aspect of this whole degree--CLASSROOM SETTING.  It's why I quit the first time. My self-esteem is not good enough to walk into a room full of people. I am more comfortable with my church folk. So here begins my journey.  I thought about this degree long and hard and with some prayerful thoughts.  I thought what do I like to do--

1. I love to talk!!
2. I love to chit chat!!
3. I love to visit with people!!!
4. I love to socialize at gatherings and visit with anyone-particularly the older folk!!!
5. I love to talk!!

Did I say that already haha!! So I found a degree- COMMUNICATIONS/PUBLIC RELATIONS!!!  I immediately looked online for the courses and I got everything I needed to move forward.  Guess what!! I am a junior at Southern Utah University!! I am only 35 credits away from graduating with a degree which means if I hustle I could graduate at my goal date- 40 years old....

I can't believe it-ok Kyle is almost done to and I expressed my concern for the classroom and he said "Sadie, let's finish this together!!"  He wants to walk with me down another aisle--the College aisle..I felt safe and we are even taking a math class together. 

This led to our move.  We found a darling, cheap, acreage, cheap, home in New Harmony.  It really is going to be great for the kids.  My only set back is my parents and my sister live on the otherside of the freeway. Which many would be grateful for family around but I am not.  It is something I am really struggling with and I will hold my chin up high and be the bigger person.  At least I won't be living in "katie's town" as my dad put it so boldly.

On to something positive-the kids are way excited they get it to go to the same school they left in Cedar City-we will be closer to Kyle and I will be inbetween St. George for the girls activities.  This is going to be a really great move. I have a really good friend that lives in New Harmony and I am grateful that I have had her to turn too.

I feel really blessed and very grateful for the opportunties the Lord gives us to grow. I read a book by a preacher named John C. Madsen--and this may explain to you why I picked this degree-he said in his book that you should do one hard thing everyday that stretches you-and going to the Campus at SUU is going to be very hard-you really have no idea and many do not and will never understand-and living that close to family that I don't feel welcome around is a big stretch as well-to take it further I must keep it positive, I must recite affirmations that are going to allow my self-esteem to grow and also keep my humble. Kyle has showed me so many ways to step out of my comfort zone and I have watched him grow into the man he is today.  He is still working on it but he is progressing and trying very hard to do the right thing.  You will very rarely hear him speak ill of anyway and he NEVER speaks ill of family.  He has been a great strength in my life.

This is going to be AWESOME!!!!! Another adventure for the Pulsipher's....