We spent the weekend in Alamo looking at Kyle's progression in the RV park world. It looks amazing and I am so gald he shared it with us.  We had a wonderful time visiting with family. I never really chatted with Lane and Heidi and what a treat that was to get to know their family-just a little bit.  They are darling. Kara and David are always good to entertain and honestly I enjoyed just working around the trailer park and trying to pick up after trash mongers.  Kyle's workers don't know where the big black dump truck is to throw away their own Chimichanga wrappers.

Kylee attempted to sale beads and bracelets and Heidi was generous enough to buy two from her. And the other kids rode 4-wheelers all day. We roasted marshmellows, hotdogs and even blew off some fireworks that just about blew us up.  This city girl didn't appreciate the country living at that point.  All kids were accounted for and we hit the hay quickly.

I am still on my mission of reading the Book of Mormon but TV does get the best of me at night.  Today was the first day of school and I am so glad that my children enjoyed their day.  All of them went to school today. It was as peaceful as I imagined it. Ammon enjoyed going to school with Ella and I think Ella felt proud to be the big sister their with her little brother. She told me she has homework and sure enough she has her little yellow folder with some homework.

Attie has Mrs. Alexander for first grade and she seemed content. Sandy has another boy teacher Mr. Swartz and  I hope she loves it. Willie has Ms. Angel and she is an Angel. He really seemed happy to tell me about his day. Kylee has Ms. Freeberg and seems to really like her.  I have all 4 kids at the same school and it is such a blessing because we are moving again. It was inevitable. I hate this house. It is gross and small-but I have always been grateful for a roof over my head. Kyle let the yard get really bad and so they want us out. We do need something bigger but I just can't figure out where we can go that we could afford.  We barely made it with this house.

You know Kyle and I talked tonight and he decided to be self-emplyed and you know he made that decision on his own. I am disappointed at times because my life is at the mercy of him and it is so hard to keep going when all I want is something stable in my life. A normal job with consistent income. No one has ever asked me what I wanted in life. I have always just gone with the flow. And I am uncertain what to do.  I guess I will keep surviving one day to the next.

In contradictory to my past paragraph I must say today was the first day that I have felt like a good stay at home mom.  I really enjoyed it today. For the first time in 13 years I am grateful to my Father in Heaven for allowing me the feeling of satisfaction in being a stay at home mom. What a real blessing. But the reality is that I don't think it is possible to keep the kids doing what they are doing if I don't work. There is just not enough money for two or three families.  That is the reality. So what to do.  I will continue to pray.

I am so blessed to have direction from good things and people in my life. I must retire to bed because I have been up for almost 24 hours. And it is another day of school and learning. Love to all.