Sunday BEST!!!

Today is Sunday and so far I am listening to the beautiful Sunday music in the background and then you have the sounds of fighting children, the teasing the chaos and I am supposed to say I wouldn't trade this for anything.  Some church members leave the church because it is easier to stay home then deal with the chaos of Sunday and getting ready. I believe that Satan works overtime on Sundays. The portals are definitely opened and I feel like sometimes it floods me on the Sabboth but through it all I try to remember the scripture that Joseph Smith left us in the Doctrine Covenants. "All this shall give thee experience."  I hope so because in the end I need to be an expert in something. 

Today recently Kyle and I met with the Bishop and it is mostly because we are new in the ward and they want to extend a calling. Like usually I get the calling of the music so I was asked to play the organ, which I absolutely love this calling it just is fun to play on an instrument that is so magnificent in the church.  Kyle on the other hand was really asked to babysit Willie. This is something I have had to deal with his whole life. From Primary days to know Young Men's. Not every ward has been this way. Some are more accepting of Willie but I find most are afraid and they walk on thin ice when they talk with us. Willie is a touchy topic. When he was in Primary I took the stand that I wanted no calling in Primary-Willie needed to learn to cope and others needed to learn how to cope. And it went over well in some areas and not so well in others. But for the most part we have had a good experience with Primary and Willie has progressed wonderfully with the stand that I have taken.  But I believe I am going to have to take that same stand soon in Young men's. I feel that Willie is capable mentally and physically to handle himself appropriately in Young men's and calling Kyle is just a coop out.  Kyle does go on the camp outs with Willie because we both feel Willie needs that extra protection and care that the leaders won't be able to give. But we both feel that Willie is capable of fitting in if the leaders expect the TYPICAL boys will help out. Kyle is off thinking about it but I did tell him that if he doesn't accept the calling and if I need to I will oppose the calling in sacrament. I have become pretty vocal in my actions lately.  I am really tired of the mormon cultural and the judgements that get passed living here in Utah. Utah is definitely a state of it's own and I would love to move to California and enjoy the friendships with members that are excited you are there.  Utah has been hard for us or maybe just me.  But my testimony is strengthened by the faith I have in my Father n Heaven. I love the Savior and I am trying my best and I am giving what I can-maybe I should give more of myself but for now I am doing what I can.
I am so grateful for my kids. Kyle and I were talking last night on our date how much we love our kids and what good kids we have.  All my children stick up for each other and themselves. All my children are self driven and very hard workers. Some struggle mentally and are weaker then others but they know who they can turn and I try to teach them that the Savior is their for them through prayer.  We talk often of missions and my girls are pretty sure they want to go.  We set goals and we do our best to accomplish them. I expect them to behave and treat all people kindly. Just this week Sandy sent violin lessons papers out to neighbors. My kids are driven to work hard and earn money. They want to carry their own weight they desire greatness from themselves. And I don't do all this by myself. Kyle is a big part but also the gospel is a major player in our lives.  I love music and we listen to all kinds of music but Sunday's is our special day for inspiring music to help remind us who we belong to ultimately.

I am so grateful for all the Lord has blessed me with. I am more grateful for the trying times because truly I cannot take for granted the blessings I have because I know what it is like to be without, I know what it is like to not be able to buy food for my kids, I know what it is like to struggle spiritually and wonder if prayer really works. I have found that prayer is the lifeline to God and even though I always knew that I really know it now and I need that relationship with my God. He is my Father and someday I will return and report and hope that I will return with HONOR.