Saturday is a Special Day!!

Today was amazing!! Well it's just been a good day. Do you ever have one of those days and you think, "Dang it, ALL.. it's a good day!! Today was it.. and it's not over.. I am writing very prematurely but I can tell you why..

I started reading books again.. one of my favorite people always shares his story, he always shares his personal growth and he is in the personal growth business.. and I don't think it is for the money.. I really believe he does it because he has something special and he has a gift with motivating people, and he has found his passion. But Justin Prince has definitely caught the world by storm.. I probably secretly stalk his social media and I am inspired by the way he tells his story.. but let's remember behind every good man is a better Woman... so after reading an Instagram post or an email that I receive from his automated and generated emails (because I am on the list) I decided that I needed to start reading books again.. at least listening to them.. I decided that I do a lot of TALKING at my children and I do a lot of motivating my kids like: Do you have a plan? What's the plan? You got this.. Life is all about failing forward.. People suck and men lie.. (haha) you can be whoever you want to be.. If anything.. Just be Polite.. Get up in the morning.. Get a routine.. Start your day out right!!.. I do this 24-7 with my kids.. and guess what.. I am a hypocrite..

I figure I have probably already ruined my life (I am 45) and I need to help my kids not ruin theirs.. so NONE of this WOULD APPLY to ME!!!

My husband left early this morning to be with our First Favorite daughter in Salt Lake City.. she is going to go to Cameo College and finish her beauty licenses.. but she loves when her dad comes because he asks good questions.. he's funny.. he makes fun of people to their face.. they all laugh.. he's charming.. they all love him to tease them.. and he buys her lunch.. and fills up her gas tank and window wiper fluid and besides.. Kyle is just plain fun to hang out with..

Kyle told me as he left.. "Party it up sweets.. Go shopping.. relax.. have fun with out me.. do what you would do if I wasn't there harassing you!!

It GOT me thinking.. I thought.. SELF??? What is it you would do.. how would you spend your day.. What do you love..

I called my sweetheart and I said, "Kyle.. I don't know me.. I can't do anything.. I don't know what I love.. I've always followed you around and done whatever you want to do (it's true).. I said, "I am BORING!! (21 years of this)

You could tell on the phone with the silence that he felt bad. He may have even said a silent prayer for me.. HELP this POOR WOMAN!! haha

Then it dawned on me.. I need to read books.. so I began reading the book by John C Maxwell.. I can't tell ya the name of it but it is something like the 15 ways to Personal Growth or something.. As I am reading.. I am like.. I NEED HELP!! I need to find my PASSION.. I need to FOLLOW my HEART.. I need to do what I LOVE!! What do I LOVE.. I don't LOVE anything.. I don't think I love ANYONE!! haha

But I have gone through a weird phase in life.. kids are getting older.. kids are so fun right now.. I love where I live.. I have thoughts pop into my head daily of GREAT ideas to write a BOOK.. SO hear I am writing..

I love to write.. I love to write about random thoughts.. I love to express myself on paper.. I don't know if anyone will ever read my daily thoughts but I love to type.. I love to engage in my head and get it out and really PONDER the thoughts of this LIFE..

I am so BLESSED to have a Husband that empowers me.. We all need someone in our life that EMPOWERS us.. We need to be BRAVE and follow our HEART.. the risk is worth the reward..

Needless to say.. I hope to stay focused on what drives me.. and possibly I can write about something everyday that maybe might help someone else or make some else laugh or even help someone NOT feel ALONE!!!.

By NATURE I am a loner.. I don't mind being ALONE.. But I am the worst kind of Introvert/Extrovert.. Because when I am alone.. if to long.. I feel very useless & worthless.. I have to be doing something.. I have to be serving.. I have to be cleaning.. I have to be PRODUCTIVE.. I do NOT have to be making MONEY all the time!! But I have to keep my head and my heart on the SAME TRACK!!

Have you tried that yet??? The Head & the HEART!! It's like trying to stir oil and water and hoping you come up with something.. but eventually if you get the right ingredient it will come together..

I am so proud of my kids.. Even though everything I am teaching them right now, (they don't know I am learning right along with them and trying to take my own advice) I am so grateful that they listen.. they respect the beauty that they are in this life.. they love this opportunity here on earth to LEARN, LOVE & GROW!!! And in order for me to keep up with them and STAY a HEAD of them (YES us parents need to stay ahead of our kids) I have to keep my FAITH & keep my own PERSONAL GROWTH GROWING!!.

What a GLORIOUS DAY!!! I am the Storm.. I am the Calm.. and I am ME.. and I do know ME!!

I know what I love.. I know WHO I am.. and I know WHOSE I am!!

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God Bless you all

Peace & Blessings

xoxox