Danube RIVER Cruise..

What an experience!! I wanted to document my trip... so many parallels with so many fun times and times of sadness.. times of laughter... times of reflection... and those A-HA moments kept me on my toes...

It did help that the company we kept were fun... positive... and just as excited as we were to see the World of Eastern Europe...

We flew to Amsterdam-Prague and then spent 7 days busing it across Europe... Salzburg... Friedberg (Kyle's tour)... Bavaria... Munich... Linz...  Vienna... boating to Budapest..

Every city contained it's horror of Hitler... beauty of "The Sound of Music"... sadness of bombings destroying entire cities... Disney's inspiration for the Cinderella Castle... Home of Mozart... Prague's "rodeo drive" of shopping... Paprika of Hungary... Austria's home of KTM... and the small town of Oberammergau who presents the "Passion of the CHRIST" ONLY every 10 years...

This is the reason we went... the small town presents in honor of Christ this play to show their love of what Christ did for us so that their town will be freed of the plague that killed hundreds of people... their dedication... drama... and their loyalty was left on the stage... 

It was the HIGHLIGHT for me... It brought tears to my eyes to see the love of these people and what they were willing to do to keep their town safe...

Do you have something that YOU sacrifice to protect your family? I know I don't... I think the last time I sacrificed something was on my mission... It was a beautiful trip with friends that I will treasure forever...

BUT what I brought home in a nutshell was the way the whole TOUR was ran... It was punctual... It was FUN... It was tiring... BUT it had a PLAN...

I like plans... You have probably read many writings from this blog about having a plan... but I realized when I got off the boat that OUR life is much like a CRUISE...

In perspective... let me back up... When we got off the BUS we boarded the AMAwaterways River cruise ship... We showed our passports... showed our room and in our room was a key that we would use to check in and off our BOAT... 

EVERYDAY their would be an itinerary of our day... Our pillows were fluffed... Dark chocolate placed on each pillow and we felt like a Prince and Princess... 

At night I would read the next days agenda and Kyle and I would make a plan for us... We would include our friends with our decisions and work with them because of course we were on this cruise because of them and wanted to spend time with them... some things we did together and some things we did on our own... and the BEST was when we were together for sure...

It got me thinking... HOW is this any different then my home... 

MY life and journey I am on can be like a cruise... detailed... FUN... tiring... with friends at times... and sometimes without... BUT at the end of the day what am I doing to better organize my home... and even leave the BUSY to the world...

The one things I loved about this trip was it took the HUSTLE out of my life... I was getting so tired of just HUSTLING... my mind was getting to point that I simply was becoming numb to the American PUSH... don't get me wrong I like the stress... but it was becoming to much... and I made a decision while gone for the last 16 days... MY DRIVE doesn't determine MY SPEED...

BE the Cruise Director in your life... don't let other people's emergency become your priority... Make a Plan every night for the next day... ADD the little details... the times... the breaks... don't fill your day with unimportant items... and if you can't fill the time.. don't be Hard on yourself... let that BE... YOU time... or a quiet reading moment with a child or spouse...

Europeans live differently then US... and WE could take some notes... they LOOK UP...

I took notes... I am going to do things different in my life and I am going to be more conscience in the "ENJOY" 

You can make some many comparisons with this... 

YOU can say GOD is the cruise director... 

YOU can say GOD created the journey... 

YOU can place it however YOU see fit... 

FOR ME I feel so blessed for the experience... every travel experience changes my life... I love seeing the WORLD GOD created... and when I see people... I say... MAN I have some crazy... weird... brothers and sisters... the Germans don't like us... the Austrians don't know anything about the Sound of Music... and HITLER was a bad bad man... but MOZART wrote some beautiful music... 

At the end of the Cruise and seeing God's hand in it all... I feel blessed. I feel blessed to have had this experience. And Kyle and I became more secure with each other... HE does ADORE me... HE does LOVE ME... and being vulnerable is not easy for me... I have the best people in my life... The Schmidt's and The Payne's are my eternal friends... I am blessed to know them and I am a better woman because of them... THANK YOU Jessica & Tonya... 

Jesus take the WHEEL...

#maximizeyoueveryday #realhousewifesu #womanstouch

GOD BLESS AMERICA

 I LOVE AMERICA...

I LOVE LIVING in AMERICA

I was raised with a STRONG LOVE for AMERICA & the FREEDOMS we have... I don't wish to make the post about the generation now and how they Do NOT get it... and I could go on my OPINION of the WHY's our nation is dwindling with the LOVE of AMERICA...

BUT I LOVE AMERICA... and President Trump may be the only one besides my mother that LOVES AMERICA more then ME...

It was a SAVED Nation by GOD for these last days.

It is a Nation that GOD blessed as the Promised Land...

It is a Nation that would Gather God's children...

Did I say... I LOVE AMERICA... I love JULY 4th more then ANY Holiday... My grandfathers and my father served this Great Nation... suffered through the Great Depression... Made it work... Lived the American Dream... BUILT it... watched it be torn down... Planted... Progressed... 

WE have it ALL... 

I am so GRATEFUL to live here... I leave YOU with the song that still makes me cry and PROUD to be AN AMERICAN... 

O say, can you see
By the dawn's early light
What so proudly we hail'd
At the twilight's last gleaming?

Whose broad stripes and bright stars
Through the perilous fight
O'er the ramparts we watch'd
Were so gallantly streaming?

And the rocket's red glare
The bombs bursting in air
Gave proof through the night
That our flag was still there

O say, does that star-spangled banner yet wave
O'er the land of the free
And the home of the brave?

MAXIMZIE YOU MOMENTS

Words and things are running through my mind. My fourth favorite is 18 today... My 5th favorite turned 16 last week... and everyone is growing up.

I wanted to capture what was in my head... I am scared... I am weepy... I am sad... I am glad... I am lost... I am found... I am beginning to see with eyes that I believed were open but they are becoming SO VERY open...

This life is INTENTIONAL... WE are to make it intentional... WE are here to MAKE it... WE are here to MAXIMIZE it...

I have had a thought come to ME... I need MAXIMIZE YOU with these Moments...

What I feel... What my thoughts are... What I dwell on are MINE... and I take responsibility for them... I can do with them what I please... either for the better good of my growth or for the worse... I CHOOSE how to MAXIMIZE ME...

GOD & Opportunities

YOU have to TRAIN YOUR MIND to SEE...THE World is YOUR canvas... GOD created YOU and GAVE you this opportunity to make a CHOICE... YOU have AGENCY... 

This life is not to be lived... YOU are to LIVE this LIFE... HOW you say... YOU have to BELIEVE GOD... YOU have to believe that this ONE life is YOUR opportunity to BE anything YOU want to be... 

There are some conditions to God's laws... If you were born a Girl... You are a Girl... If you were born a boy... You are a boy... God does have conditions... BUT when it comes to opportunity... there are NO limits like the sands of the sea... BUT... YOU have to BELIEVE & YOU have to SEE...

Have you ever had an out of body experience? One of my favorite movies is Dr. Strange... I love the part when the "Teacher" thrusts Dr. Strange into an "Out of Body" kind of experience... where he is literally looking down at himself and really SEEING for the first time ALL that can be... ALL that HE can be...

I have those experiences often, especially when I am dreaming and when I am trying to convince my brain that I am SMART... that I am CAPABLE... that I CAN BE anything I put and tell my mind to do and BE...

It is true... some people get so stuck in the CAN NOT's of life that THEY can't see past their NOSE... HOW sad... truly sad this is... when I feel this way... I literally have to CATCH my MIND in the ACT and tell it... STOP IT...

BUT their is OPPORTUNITY out there for YOU for ME and plenty of it for EVERYONE... YOU HAVE TO TRAIN YOUR MIND TO SEE IT...

I love REAL estate... I didn't know anything about real estate until Kyle introduced me to it... I would dream about homes but Kyle got me hooked when he helped me buy my first 1/2 acre lot in our place of residence... I was so excited about it, I bought 2 1/2 acre lots... then I sold those lots for double their worth... and then I learned about 1031 money... and then it became an addiction... 

I started looking for all kinds of real estate... opportunities to create cashflow etc... Kyle was so good at looking for opportunities that he found a duplex for our 1031 money... 

NOW don't get me wrong... I've had my wins and my losses... BUT the point of this blog today is YOU have to TRAIN YOUR mind to see opportunity... 

I am in a service business industry... so I am constantly looking at the competition... I am constantly learning the industry and I am constantly looking for new ideas to build the opportunity that Kyle presented to me 10 years ago...

OPPORTUNITY is everywhere... If you want to serve others... look for it... If you want to have money... look for it... If you want to be a good speaker... find opportunities to speak... I promise GOD put YOU here on EARTH to HAVE an Opportunity...

Remember our Heavenly Father needs valiant and self-reliant sons and daughters... He needs you to be ALL that you can be... YES he wants you to be Captain America and Wonder woman... These kinds of people that SEEK opportunity always make room on their plate for more... More service... More ways to give back... they begin to CREATE Opportunity... They become more like our Heavenly Father...

Jesus Christ created opportunity... He provided a way for us to return to live with Heavenly Father again... It is up to us to do the same... WE can do that spiritually and temporally... When we have sufficient for our needs we then can give to others... When we are heavy laden with debt and burdens it is hard to create Opportunities...

SO TRAIN YOUR MIND... TRAIN YOUR mind by your daily goals... that build habits... that create a system and routine to SEE what YOU are meant to SEE and BE...

instead of LOOKING down... LOOK UP & around... Bake a plate of cookies and take it to a neighbor... Drive with a little more compassion... Open the door for someone... You want a business... search Google... or find someone who can ask you the hard questions and get your mind running... Whatever it is YOU need... LOOK... the opportunity is there... I promise you... and I will also promise you when you are looking for it with GOD in mind... You may open doors, and he may shut them... BUT HE will NOT leave you alone... HE will keep running down that opportunity corridor with YOU until the right one is right... 

YOU are here for a reason and a purpose... only GOD knows and maybe that someone special WHO just knows... BUT YOU have a purpose... YOU have to TRAIN YOUR mind to SEE IT & BELIEVE IT... 

G-O-A-L Bender...

 Grow what matters

One Step

At a time.

Little by little, your

Steps will add up..

Can YOU believe once again... I've totally set myself up for every failure possible in my year... I always want to write and write and write... and look at me... almost 90 days into the NEW Year and this is only my second blog post... NO Wonder I have very few views... The consistency of anything I do is sometimes overwhelming of how much I am not consistent... BUT I am NOT going to be beating myself up anytime soon... I am ME... I am wonderful... and I am the BADASS many think I am... I AM...

I did what I said I was going to do and I usually do... some may say... she starts it but never finishes it... but whose to say and who gets to say when there is a date... only society puts limitations in our minds and hearts... so here it goes...

tonight I held my first ever Maximize YOU everyday "ROOM" on Facebook... in some peoples eyes it was a flop... but I felt it a GREAT success.. I had the most important people in MY entire life in that room... MY husband... My daughter Sandy... My niece Ivy... and MY sister Amy... 

Honestly, I was surprised anyone was on... but the most satisfying thing was... I DID it... I prepared... my thoughts were like a rough draft... just imagine your grandma baking a nice fresh loaf of bread and you wake up to the smell of fresh bread... you know that smell... you feel loved... you feel safe... you feel at home... 

This is how I describe it... it was such a beautiful thing for me.. 

so let's recap for those that didn't get to join... GOAL BENDER... YOU are bout to embark on a trip with the REAL Housewife of SOUTHERN UTAH... why do I call myself that... because I am ME... I am not trying to trip you up with some deep psycho eccentric ego that thinks I have all the answers... I am not here to tell you something I don't know... that was a really great song BTW... and I am REAL... I will be raw and honest... YOU will get 100% of ME... I haven't been trained in the line of LIFE coaching, Mind Coaching, Emotional Coaching or anything... (not that anything is wrong with any of that).. in fact I have hired a life coach I love her dearly... but my goal is to be able to relate to YOU... to show YOU that YOU can do anything... YOU can be YOU... 

Goal Bender ...

Why Goals... Why are we a society and people of GOALS... Why do we continue to feel the need to progress, to be educated, to be trained?

I believe 100% we are spiritual beings who worked hard before we came to earth... 

I believe 100% every inner desire, dream, idea was and is manifested in and through our DNA...

Reaching and tapping into these ideas is like digging for Gold... so what does it take to find GOLD... The entire process is broken into 4 steps.. 

• Prospecting
• Mining
• Extracting
• Refining

We PROSPECT our goals... We decide on them... We search them... WE seek them... We WANT them... Whether you believe it or not... but every time YOU desire or want... that is like seeking a goal...

If I desire a big ranch to runaway too... I am going to figure out a way to get that ranch... I am going figure out what it takes... how much.. where.. then what... so I set goals... I do things spiritually, financially, educationally, socially to figure out HOW to make that happen... 

Are you following me... EVERYDAY we are setting goals in our mind... or prospecting for GOLD to get something better... to make ourselves better... to achieve something better...

And I mean who wouldn't want GOLD... The rainbow is the slide that leads us to this POT... but the path to our end goal is never ever a rainbow of colors... I do know that...

I've been setting goals and planning since I was a little girl... MY MOMMA taught me this... GOTTA have a plan Sadie.. What's the plan Sadie... so I'm really good at plans and then I became a Master at setting Goals... I love vision boards... those things are the bomb... Have you ever made one... that will be for next time...

But AM I 100% successful in achievement... no... but after ALL the fail forwards I decided I wanted to start something greater with Maximize YOU... I want to encourage YOU to never give up... 

Don't forget the GOLD... Keep the VISION... Proverbs 29:18 says.. Where there is NO vision the people perish... WELL nobody got time to be perishing okay...

I have learned that when I see with the end in mind it makes the journey a little daunting but doable.. it's the GOAL... always always visualize yourself prospecting the goal... your brain will help you find what you are wanting... it will I promise... once you have set it... mine it like gold... extract it... then refine it...

The GOAL will constantly change as you change... YOU don't have to have a HARD pinned down GOAL... YOU have to be able to move with your GOAL... life happens and YOU have to have the ability to move through it..

Some GOALS will become beautiful HABITS in your life... The Goal for me to get up and make my bed everyday was frustrating some days... I know for a fact I wasn't the only one sleeping in that bed... but I knew after watching many motivational reels on Instagram... I knew if I started with my BED... I could hook that habit to a new goal... and so forth... and I have ... now I am not frustrated that I am the one makes the BED... I love that I make the bed... I make it better anyway, so it works good in my favor.. LOL..

Here is another example of why I am the REAL HOUSEwife in Southern Utah... 

MONDAY night before I went to bed I was feeling very worthless and unsuccessful... I had a really long day at work... I really wanted to crawl in a hole and die... I told Kyle am I going to ever amount to anything... I was really having a low moment... but I told him if he quoted Edna from the Incredibles movie one more time, I might throat punch him... "You are elasti-girl... pull yourself together." or even scream... It was just one of those days...

But after a nice long hug... head check... hand on my heart and beautiful big deep breathe... I sat at the table... instead of writing my to-do list that was mile long and whole lot of stuff... I wrote a list of everything I did RIGHT... I listed the GOALS that I did accomplish... 

•  I got up when my second alarm went off... I am working on the first alarm...
•  I made my bed... and if I write that everyday, I am going to feel like a Queen...
•  I listened to my book 
• The list went on...

I reaffirmed my accomplishments... This is what it takes to through a GOAL... 

March is MY month... It is my Birthday month... My anniversary month... and like the Chinese... I created my OWN calendar... it is the YEAR of the PUSH... if you would like to write that on your calendar, feel free... 

to wrap this up... I am 90 days into the 2022 year... I have gained weight... I have only read 1 book... but the SUN RISES and SETS everyday... it's NOT over... there is NO need to crawl in a hole... there is no need to want to die... there is that Spiritual side of us that knows... WE know because HE (HEavenly Father) imprinted it on our DNA... it's what keeps us connected and grounded... it's keeps us waking up every morning to want to do better and be better... it's because of HIM we know YOU...

I pray for YOU... I love YOU... I hope that YOU continue to set goals... if your scared, there's ways around it... but just know... YOU are NOT alone... WE all go through the HARD... and that's another topic and subject for another day...

GO MAXIMIZE YOU!!

THE NEW YEAR!! 2022

TWENTY-TWENTY-TWO... How exciting... The NEW YEAR ALWAYS brings a sense of NEW BEGINNING... We spend our time writing goals... Setting intentions... Making plans... Dreaming of WHAT can BE...

This year we made a Nacho Bar... invited whoever wanted to join us... played games of pool and watched the BALL drop... I think my favorite part was as it was counting time down for the BALL to drop Kyle whisks over to me and puts his loving arms around my waist... I inadvertently say... Are you trying to KISS ME... He laughs and says YES... I want my New Year's Kiss... 

YOU must know... THIS MAN shows NO PDA when people are around... so it was very embarrassing for me with our new friends... I may or may not have BLUSHED A LITTLE...

BUT I did get my NEW YEARS KISS... and maybe it's just been a while... haha... 

The older we get the more we want to just go to BED...

But it was a GREAT day... The boys went riding... Ella and I went with Willie to get our pedicures and had a wonderful lunch at Kneaders AND it is ON the WAY HOME I decided to GET EXCITED... if YOU are NOT excited... then I am here to say... that is on YOU...

The last couple of months I have been in a BLACK HOLE... I have been struggling... I have been sucked into a dimension that is familiar and it torments my soul... so I reached out to a friend and began therapy sessions on a whole new level... 

I needed this woman because she could talk to me in an ETERNAL language that my spirit would understand... so here goes MY JOURNEY...

I have always found Marriage difficult... I have always struggled to be a part of Kyle's world... I have always wanted him to make ME his PROJECT... I have always tried to get our two worlds to come together and make ONE world... well NEWS FLASH... (and I am sure you already know this) BUT WE are MARRIED... BUT WE have SEPERATE JOURNEYS... Kyle's Journey isn't MINE... and MINE isn't HIS... and somehow WE both have to make it WORK... I mean in OUR world WE are SEALED for Time & ALL Eternity (message me if you have questions). BUT does that MEAN... I have to SAY YES to everything, every time... NO... but it does MEAN I have to BE SECURE... CONFIDENT... and REAL with ME...

I am so excited to have this knowledge... TRUTH... Spoken to ME... It has always been a part of me but I needed to have it affirmed in a very deep way...

SO I am working on MY Journey... I am learning about my Emotional Intelligence on an Eternal level...

And it is so EXCITING... this is what it has meant for ME so far...

Today... Kyle took AMMON (my favorite #6) to go dirt bike riding... HE does this a lot... but I get upset... sometimes I am so unhappy because I feel like my day has been wasted and I've been lonely... and I think what am I even good for... BUT instead...

TODAY... I looked for opportunities in MY journey... I was in a BIG way... CONSCIENCE in the present of what I would like to do with my time and HOW I would like to spend the time I have... and it was a beautiful DAY!! 

Ella and I spent the afternoon getting pampered... I came HOME and started my fridge out with a Make-OVER... so I gutted my whole fridge... and I was surprisingly pleasant when the boys came home... WHY!! Because I was in tune with my journey and when they came home I could merge my present state with their journey... SO far our night is GOOD. I anticipate hard days as I grow... BUT I have knowledge and resources... :)

I PRAY YOU to find the JOURNEY in your DAY... MAXIMIZEYOU has a whole new meaning to me now... and I hope that every day YOU will become MORE REAL, MORE FOCUSED, MORE Emotionally Intelligent on a level that takes you to an Eternal realm...

#maximizeYOUeveryday 
#peaceandblessings 
#sadieshow #teamsadie 
#soundsofsadie 
#willieswonders
#myjourney
#ohanaracing
#mywildmustang
#5amserious
 

MERRY CHRISTMAS

 

2021!! 

Knowing the End from the Beginning makes life a lot more interesting... the Material side of things become less and less important... personal growth becomes more self-soothing & the longing for ETERNAL perspective & knowledge makes YOU a soul seeker...

This YEAR has been nothing short of a BLUR!! It was a MOVING YEAR... We sold our Vacation HOME for a "NORMAL" Residential home... MOVED our Business... MOVED our FRIENDS... and in between all of that had 2 more litters of Puppies... We became 5 AM SERIOUS... Lived in the RV (AGAIN) for 4 months... slammed us all into ONE room so we could tear out carpet... paint, replace old with NEW... all the WHILE praying that GOD would HELP us "Keep our HEADS ABOVE WATER"...

WE learned... WE loved... WE lived... 

I love this TIME of YEAR of SELF-reflection... LOOKING in the MIRROR and seeing the RAW, Mind-blowing astonishment of WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH... I can only repeat what was once said in the infamous movie The Incredibles... "THAT WAS TOTALLY WICKED"!!! 

OUR YEAR... the word FUN would be an understatement... BUT it was... THE Challenge of moving, the TEARS through Trials... The Opportunities to FALL on my KNEES and PLEAD have meant the world to me...

Kylee & Ben have been married now for 2 years... They moved into a beautiful apartment in South Jordan and Kylee opened her WAXING Salon Business... & was just accepted into Ensign College... Ben is working and going to school and I am so grateful for the way they execute life... 

Willie (22) is just Willie... He is TIK TOK famous... He loves to ride his 4-wheeler and HE is the newest employee of  KYLEAMERICA... He is Kyle's assistant... He got FIRED from the DI for FAKE CALLING in sick (cough cough)... and so our company had to absorb Willie onto the staff. So far it is working very well. Kyle gets harassed and Willie buys lunch... LOL they are definitely a match paired in HEAVEN...

Sandy (Sister Sandy) (20) accepted her original call to AFRICA and she MOVED to Africa in March... She was sad to leave her family and friends in Michigan but she has loved the Saints in Africa... Her stories are hers to tell but this girl is on "FIRE" We are looking for her MOVE home sometime in February...

Attie (17) graduated early and we are so proud of her. Her highlight was going on the back east trip with 50 kids she had never met but someone knew a lot of them... But she had Ella... They shopped, laughed, cried and she got very HOMESICK... (I love when my kids get life lessons) ... She is working for me full-time and she cheers for Raglan Cheer. She has taken education into her hands and there are times I have to rip the books out of her hands... I love traveling with this girl... Although she does ask me to be good in the airports... I am still pretty ANTI-EVERYTHING... In the off-season, she rides dirt bikes and I know her dad is waiting for cheer season to end so he can have his girls back on bikes. 

Ella (15) went with Attie as her "chaperone" on the back east trip LOL... and Ella enjoyed the history of it... She is still playing tennis passionately.. the girl is driven, disciplined, and very determined. She just got her driving permit and so her dad has taken her out on several drives. I think he just looks at his phone and hopes for the best. I won't drive with the kids... too scary... Ella will tell me "I am a good driver" and I say... "So am I"... but she has had her own little puppy business for the past year and she has done so good with them. She is a HARD negotiator but she knows her breed and the work that goes into them... 

Ammon (14) this boy is like a toy figurine out of TOY story... He loves LOVES his Dirtbike... He is so excited for this upcoming season... He has goals, he works with his dad helps Ella with her dogs. He also plays tennis and is a great hitting partner with Ella. He doesn't love it as much as Ella but it sure keeps him shape for his dirtbikes..

ALL and ALL nothing much has changed... We keep on keeping on... We keep living... We keep breathing... and We keep thanking our Heavenly Father for every NEW day... isn't that what life is all about... ALL the little moments... ALL the moments are GRATEFUL moments... GRATEFUL to open your EYES & see... GRATEFUL for EARS to Hear... GRATEFUL for MY children WHO LOVE ME unconditionally... GRATEFUL for MY Husband WHO I LOVE to HATE... and WHO I LOVE so PASSIONATELY it makes me crazy... NOBODY knows HIM like I DO... Many people see me WORKING or see me RUNNING Here and There... BUT what YOU may NOT know... IT is because of HIM YES... Because of MY KYLE... that I am able to be the CRAZY BEAST I am... so if YOU don't see KYLE or if YOU think YOU know... YOU don't... He's OUR Rock... He's our WILD MUSTANG... He is OUR EVERYTHING... 

We love our LORD & Savior Jesus Christ... We are able to do hard things because OUR Faith in HIM is relentless and unwavering... I pray you will find the JOY... the PEACE... the LOVE you need for the next day, the next week, the next month & even the NEXT YEAR!! 

There is a PLAN... It is the PLAN of HAPPINESS... it doesn't come to YOU... It is IN YOU... It is ALL around YOU... May God Bless YOU, Your Family, and everyone around you. YOU are HIS... YOU always were and ALWAYS will BE... 

Merry Christmas from OUR family to YOURS

#peaceandblessings
#maximizeyoueveryday
#jesuschrist
#sadieshow
#teamsadie
#5amserious
#soundsofsadie

PASSION... What is YOURs?

MY thoughts... WHERE are they... WHY do I have thoughts... WHY am I so moved to write them... Share them... and WHY am I so PASSIONATE about this LIFE... How did I become so PASSIONATE about this EARTH LIFE... WHY is this TIME so precious... WHY are my thoughts always overthinking... WHY are my thoughts always going through GREEN LIGHTS... WHY won't it STOP... WHY do I hear Music and search for God's message to ME... WHY is my SOUL on FIRE when I think of GOD's GRACE... and WHY am I burdened with the short time I have here on Earth... WHY am I hoping I have left a LEGACY...

THESE are my WHY questions... and I have come to the soft conclusion that it is NOT the WHY I am after... I am after the PASSION of progression... I am after my PASSION... I was talking to a friend on voice text today on my way to Salt Lake and she and I were exchanging patterns of our busy day that lie ahead and how we were going to fit everything in and something struck me... 

I am PASSIONATE about YOU!! YES... YOU... YES... if you are reading this... I am PASSIONATE about YOU and about how YOU are feeling about MAXIMIZING YOUr Potential... I am hoping YOU see value in YOU... I am wanting you to see beyond the STARS, The MOON, and Even the SUN... I want YOU to SEE YOU because GOD created YOU...

When they say GOD is in the details... YOU are his living detail... every cell, molecule, DNA strand, spirit, soul... YES, everything in YOU... YOU will see HIM...

Genesis 1:27 So God created man in his own ^aimage, in the image of God created he him; male and ^bfemale created he them.

BE PASSIONATE... SET YOUR SOUL on FIRE... MAXIMIZE YOU... BE 1% better tomorrow than YOU were today... BUT GENTLE with YOU... CARE for YOU... 

and when YOU find YOUr PASSION... SHARE IT... SERVE OTHERS with IT...

I do not want to seem like this is asking you to be selfish... The only way this works is if you look outward ... look up... these are my thoughts and my thoughts alone... I write from my heart...

#maximizeyoueveryday #sadieshow #teamsadie #realhousewifesu #passion #why #think #Godlike #peaceandblessings 

OVER & OVER AGAIN

Over & Over Again I get off course... Over and Over Again I have to repent... and Over and Over Again I am reminded of my DIVINITY!! Not the WHITE stuff YOU eat... that is Nasty... 

I'll get into YOUR divinity in a Minute... BUT I am reminded Over and Over again that this life is something WE chose...

I attend a class called Relief Society in my church and every other week I am filled. Sometimes my spiritual bucket is filled and sometimes I am reminded how far I have come.

I often listen to women who are navigating a path that is difficult beyond belief... and often I hear words of Gratitude for others... but more times than not I hear that they don't know their worth... that it is hard to LOVE themselves... it's hard to forgive themselves... WHY... WHY is it so hard!!

Don't get me wrong I am not saying this isn't at times HARD for ME... I mean just the other day I found myself in a circumstance that left me so hopeless and in a state of Longing to go home... (I wouldn't call it suicide) I wanted more than anything to just be done. But I find myself on my knees pleading with DEITY, GOD, MY Father in Heaven and begging him for understanding... for forgiveness for thinking this way, for denying the Saviour a chance to heal me...

BUT SISTERS, WHY do we allow SATAN to get in our heads... 

Do you know what I believe?

I BELIEVE... YOU are DIVINE... YOU are DIVINITY (a divine being that is becoming like God & YOU are an ANGEL)

I BELIEVE... YOU have to BE GRATEFUL... Being grateful (in time.. pride gets in the way) in your journey obliterates ALL your pain... LOOK around YOU... Do you have FOOD... Do you have Clothing... Do you have a roof over your head (a trailer counts-been there)... Do you have Health... Do you have opportunities... BE GRATEFUL!!

I BELIEVE... YOU have to submit YOUR WILL to a Higher Power... whatever that looks like to YOU... For me, it is MY Father n Heaven... I believe in the atoning sacrifice of Jesus Christ... 

I BELIEVE... YOU need POSITIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE... This is hard... not going to LIE... sometimes my husband provokes or my kids' fight... or I am not in the mood to get along... and it takes the PMA right out of my DAY!! BUT recognize... and be quick... Change is the only thing constant in life... besides the North Star... Read a good book... turn your IDGAS light switch off... do know what that stands for... I DON'T GIVE A SHIT... YES, I swore... and I mean it... I don't give a shit... I am working on my MIND over EMOTION... I don't want to be that emotional Bitch that takes every little damn thing personally... I want to be strong mentally... I am navigating the coming off HARD vs. PASSIONATE... I AM A WORK IN PROGRESS... 

I BELIEVE... YOU can & it's a requirement to LOVE YOU... there is no negotiating this... Saying I am a badASS boss babe doesn't make you prideful... infact when I hear women say... I am AWESOME... I'm like HELL YA you are... Loving yourself doesn't mean... PUTTING YOURSELF DOWN... it's the opposite... It doesn't mean you are better than someone else... LOVING YOU... MEANS JUST THAT... LOVE YOU... YOU are KIND... YOU are SMART... YOU are IMPORTANT... YOU are CONFIDENT... I'll be honest... if you are insecure and play a victim or say mean things about yourself in front of me... WE will NOT be FRIENDS... I don't have time to FIX YOU... Besides, it's not MY JOB... JUST LOVE YOU... & BE FREAKING GRATEFUL... Trust me... there is a lot worse out there... and if you feel your's is the worst.. you are probably right...

OVER & OVER AGAIN!!! I get pulled back into this BLOGGING... I don't have a huge following... I am not looking for that... It is here for me and if it excites you or gives you insight and makes you feel better about yourself... then I have WON... I am not good at sugar coating things... Straight Whisky is what you get from Me... BUT YOU must KNOW...

YOU are DIVINE...

YOU are HIS...

YOU have a PURPOSE...

YOU have a PLAN...

Now get it, GIRL... 

A small disclosure: This isn't going to make the hard times go away... This isn't going to make the bad thoughts about yourself disappear... BUT what it can do... is help you react quicker to Satan's plan... he is deceitful... he is negative... he is ALL things BAD... and HE comes after YOUR heart first and then HE lets' you bleed out on others ( I know because I've experienced it).... so create a PRAYER room... create time for MEDITATION (start small amounts of time)... START a ROUTINE... Get up earlier and spend that time with GOD... 

This is REAL PEOPLE!! Our days are numbered... not just our time on Earth but He's coming... Jesus Christ is coming and he wants WOMEN who BELIEVE in themselves... He wants WOMEN who Love themselves... Don't be the 5 virgins who don't love themselves... they weren't prepared... HE wants women who have FAITH in him & Believe in themselves... WHO aren't afraid to pull their head out and GO & DO!!

For those that have been baptized and born again... YOU already know the healing process. HE isn't coming to heal you a second time... He's coming to BRING Peace to cleanse the Earth... YOU know how to be Healed... YOU know how to be forgiven... HE is ALWAYS, ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU... YOU KNOW!! LOVE YOU enough to KNOW you KNOW!!..

Psalm 139:8 "If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there"... 

HE IS THERE 

I'll be praying for YOU... I'll be praying for ME... 

Don't Hesitate to Maximize YOU EVERYDAY!! 

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SHIFT!!

Hi!! I just received my first printed book from JRNL... I am so excited... but what I am more excited about is MY Journey...

Every day the struggle is real!! Everyday Everyday Everyday... BUT this week I made a life-changing choice...

I had a "Life Coaching" experience on Tuesday and it was "LIFE Changing"!!

I met with Carol Whitaker... She is a book writer, a life coach, a mentor and I've followed her for about 6 years now...

It was so freeing... It was magical... I was absolutely able to release the garbage of my inner child and I was able to feel light again...

I knew I was feeling darkness... She even said, "Your Aura looks black and numb" and I was... I needed to release... I needed to SHIFT!!

Nothing gets me more excited in a car or when I rode 4-wheelers than shifting... there is power in shifting... there is strength, there is timing, there is control... there is anticipation and you need to know your surroundings and your environment...

Because one wrong shift and you are shit!! You can wreck, you can break, you can engage to quickly or to late...

SHIFTING is a very serious matter...

I love this about shifting... I feel as though I am finally on a path to the extreme power and I don't mean in Money or Stature... But an INNER power that can be connected with my Higher Self & my Inner soul... creating a Higher Power within me.

This is not going to happen overnight and this is not going to happen without the SHIFT!!

I have to be prepared for the moving winds... which can be the negative forces...

I have to be prepared for the sideswipes

of life... like the weird comments or fiery darts that get sent my way...

I have to learn to tap into my higher self and train my heart and brain to see Light!!

We all need to shift... We all need to shift up or down and like my husband always says... "Roll with it!"

But I like to be in control... so I will choose to SHIFT my POWER...

#maximizeyoueveryday #shift #peaceandblessings  #soundsofsadie #sadieshow #magical

The Truth!!

 Me!! I!! 

Everything I have done up until now has been what my sister-in-law would describe as the "Sadie Show"... 

So NOW it is TIME to come clean... it is MY time to pull the WIZARD of OZ curtain back and add DEPTH to my drowning... it's time to add DEPTH to my sorrow... and add DEPTH to MY WHY!!

I haven't betrayed you... I haven't been fake... infact I have been quite the opposite... I have almost been too real... I have been too vulnerable... I have been so REAL that this next part is WHAT I have been postponing... I have been postponing it because like President Trump says, "Let's DRAIN the SWAMP!!

I have this GOAL to serve others... to BUILD YOU up!! I have this goal to LIFT and SEE YOU and show you WHO YOU are and WHAT YOU are Made of... BUT

BUT BUT BUT!!!

Have you ever wanted to create something and FELT so compelled and to do so that YOU start it and YOU don't realize how much it has actually HELPED YOU?

I started Maximize YOU Everyday with such WONDERFUL intentions... 

I am LDS!! And I have sat in SO many depressing meetings where the women feel sorry for themselves... or they feel like they have NO hope and zero desire in life... or they feel overwhelmed with being the "perfect saint"... and I would sit there and think... IS church supposed to be this depressing... Am I supposed to leave feeling like a complete failure as a wife and mother... Am I supposed to feel like I let GOD down every single WEEK...

The answer is NO!! So I began to speak out... I began to (some would call it chastizing) get upset with their thinking... I almost didn't want to take my girls to these classes because they would come home and say, "Is this what women do in church, complain about their life."

Now it wasn't all like that... but It got me thinking... WHAT can I do to add value to their life... How can I help them remember WHO they are and WHOSE they are... 

Because for me it ALL starts there... pretty simple right... but it wasn't...

Here's the story of why MAXIMIZE YOU EVERYDAY was created... It was created in a very selfish way... Yes, I was in an empowering meeting when this came to me 10 years ago... but how it has impacted me and literally kept me alive at times... is the story...

I truly want to take this idea to the next level... but YOU can't go on this journey with me without the story!!

There is so much to write that I can only start and go back 23 years... Because the last 23 years have been the most meaningful... the most damaging... the most life changing and it's the time I spent the MOST time contemplating...

23 years ago I met my sweetheart... I met, got engaged and married Kyle Pulsipher... I was 23 and he was 21... I was what YOU may want to call a "COUGAR"... LOL... This man of mine was kind... gentle... thoughtful... did everything HE could to reel me IN... And don't get me wrong ladies... He really is that... but then it started... the HONEYMOON!! 

We went to FLORIDA... (where he had just served a 2 year LDS Mission). It was sweet... He didn't know where else to go and HE had no idea what to do... BUT neither did I... We SO lacked communication... and FLORIDA to me sounded cool... so off we went... 

I spent a week visiting "old mission companions" and "old families" he had just taught... I even had a lady ask me to stay in a different room while THEY visited... I couldn't believe this was happening... She even asked us to change our flights... 

The worst part was... Kyle agreed to look into it... Remember he is polite and boy was he... But he hadn't met that side of me and HERE it GOES!! I remember walking out to the rental car... knowing dang well our flight was about to leave... and he says, "what do you think" 

WHAT DO I THINK!! In my head... um... NO... Like HOW hard is it... Just say.. "No, I need to get my sweetheart home"... NO NO NO... that is not what happened...

Have you ever had one of those moments like... a WHITE chick Moment... "You said it, You were thinking it." I had one of those moments... I had what Kyle calls now an "AH SHIT" moment...

I said, "Well I guess I know who will have the BALLS in this family"... OH YES I DID!! 

I couldn't believe it... I said what my mind was thinking... I showed my true colors... I had had a terrible time in Florida... I mean really... WHO wants to see old friends after you just had sex for the first time... LET's BE REAL LADIES!!

But MAN... TRUE colors was about to get real colorful... I had pissed him off... I had triggered an energy that I didn't even know about...

Let's remember... Kyle and I had only dated 6 weeks before we got engaged and 6 weeks later we got married... Everything was CINDERELLA... He would buy me a drink at the local grocery store... then hold my hand and bring me over to his side of the truck and I would slide in perfectly next to him... ONLY to be that country girl (that I never was-I am from VEGAS remember). But I PLAYED the ROLE so well.

I was in LOVE this guy... HIS eyes... They were so blue and I knew if I had blue eyes and he had blue eyes... WE would only have BLUE eyed babies... and we did...

BUT I had him in 6th gear flaming... let's just say... he drove 100 miles an hour to the airport which we almost missed... he didn't speak to me the whole way there or the whole flight home... HE was a COMPLETE ASS... but I had just called out the "Family Jewels"... I spent the 3 hour flight home crying and writing an apology letter... 

I had NO idea what I was in for... but I knew I was being punished... I didn't know how to communicate and HE sure as hell didn't either... He had parents that fought every day of his life... he moved out of the house... or was "kicked out" when he was 17 and lived with his Aunt. He came from a long line of GRUDGE holders...  

But here I am... confused, scared, and all I wanted to do was go home... so the plane lands and we get on the road and we are headed quickly down the freeway... Little bit scary... He was a pretty fast driver... But here we are... so through all my tears... I say, "Please take me home"... "Please take me to my mom's house" "I want to go home."

I was scared for my life... I didn't know calling out a man's private parts could be so dangerous... But I was scared... because I knew I messed up... and I didn't know how to fix it... but all he could say was, "Oh, I'll take you home."

I knew what that meant... that meant my trailer... that meant I was going to live on the family farm in a trailer that I painted and wallpapered so I could try to make it a home... I knew I was going to be alone...

This was the beginning of an ETERNAL Marriage... FUN HUH!!.

It didn't get better... it got really bad... Kyle and I verbally, physically, mentally, spiritually assaulted each other everyday it seems like... 

I would be so MAD at myself that I would often sit in the closet and shake myself to relax... 

I would be so MAD that I was such a disappointment that I would beat myself up, physically at times.

I would be so MAD that I pray to GOD to bring me back home...

YOU GUYS!!! It's okay to NOT be OKAY...

How did I overcome this mess... How did I fight through the immature, insecure, ill-mannered situation...

NOW let's get real... of course there were some REALLY awesome times...

Like the time HE randomly took me to LA because he wanted to get his engine looked at on his 4-wheeler and HE took me EVERYWHERE with HIM... We loved going on Road trips... I loved quick drives here and there..

I remember the time when we sat down together and we were deciding to start having kids (4 months after marriage) ( I was thinking it would be good for us or at least for me)... but we sat down and I dropped the news on him that I felt very strongly I would have a son with Down Syndrome... and to my surprise HE was so with me... 

HE CONFIRMED time and TIME again that HE was my MAN and I was his WOMAN!!

I knew GOD had sealed this marriage... I knew it was ordained of GOD... 

BUT I didn't KNOW... I didn't know how to be a good wife... I didn't receive a MANUAL that said, "When he says this.. you say nothing" Or "When he does this, you smile and kiss him"...

ALL I KNEW how to do was FIGHT... ALL I knew how to do was fight through this mess..and so WE fought...

BUT we were PASSIONATE about each other... we were both stubborn enough that WE would not want to be NAKED in front of anyone else...

I LOVED and still LOVE KYLE... like passionately... I say his name and I still get butterflies... but the ROAD we traveled... I would NEVER recommend but I would never take a different path...

IT taught me everything GOOD I share with YOU...

Things didn't end there... It was never just a good fight and it ended...

I was literally torchered... MY inlaws, in my mind... I don't even know if I should go there... I dont' even know if they are worth the time and my typing skills for ALL the Bull Shit they ran me through..

YA KNOW!!

Anyway... I survived...and I have survived much... 

ALL the while... Kyle himself didn't know how to PROTECT, or  PRESIDE!! He had NO example of this... HE was winging it too... and I knew that... I always forgave him... And He always forgave me... because what you don't know you can't be held accountable...

But it get's better... I started to get to know myself and I started  to realize all the bad... the "abuse" was getting to me... ME giving it and ME taking it... I was lost and I was losing it... literally... 

You see.. I am a People Pleaser... and when people are haters... I'm confused... Don't let me fool YOU... I can create it as much as you can dish it... 

But over the years... I started to get HARD... I started to mentally protect myself and I started learning the GAME... I studied up on narcissism and it couldn't be that because maybe I was narcisstic too... but I couldn't trust my church because they always told me "if I did more to please him, he would be happier and so would I."

Kyle was a work a holic and never came home... 18 hour days... long days... he put his mom and dad first and didn't know how to tell them HE was a GROWN man and that he had a wife and family to care for... He still longed for acceptance and appreciation from them... 

I was dying to be that subserviant wife that doted and cared for and created a place of peace and harmony... Little did people know... MY home life was anything BUT Peace & harmony...

BUT the Kids kept coming... 1 then 2 then 3... 3 babies all under two and half years... I was going nuts... besides my hormones, the birth control I was on was making me suicidal... 

I was on my knees praying... I was hiding... I was lying to anyone and everyone... OH I am FINE!! JUST FINE... 

MONEY... You  would think there would be money problems... oh we had them... but we never fought about them... This is where Kyle really shined... He never questioned me where I spent it and I never questioned him... 

HE was a hard worker... HE always provided the best HE knew how... He always supported me (notice I didn't say "LET") in getting my hair done or my nails or anything... HE always supported me in buying MORE groceries then I needed.

But seriously... I had these 3 wonderful kids... I was teaching piano lessons... I had so many desires to be great but NOTHING was fulfilling this... nothing was filling my bucket...

I realize NOW it was ME... "It's ME NOT YOU"... You've heard that phrase before...

I mean I read all the marriage and self-help books I could but NONE of them made sense to me... NOTHING cured me... 

BUT I don't think I was looking for a cure and I wasn't looking for answers... 

I was looking for safety... I was looking for VALIDATION... I was looking for someone to feel sorry for me... and HOW wrong I was in my search...

Kyle started empowering himself... that always made me jealous... I mean... I wanted to be known for more then JUST a "stay at home mom"... Kyle didn't have it in him to work for someone else..

He was like his Grandpa Lewis and his Uncles... He had a SOLO type spirit... I didn't say HAN SOLO... he just had that spirit of controlling HIS own FREEDOMS... He didn't want to punch a time clock... He didn't want to answer to people... I mean.. GEEZ... He couldn't even be accountable to ME...

BUT if you think I was scared... I mean like... who doesn't love a "PAYCHECK"...

I came from an "Educated Home". I was always taught to go to school and get a job... My mom wanted me to go to Southern Utah University to be a Teacher... I so DID not want to be a teacher... I also found I had something in common with KYLE... I was an Independent thinker too. 

I'm sure I seemed more the Rebellious type... Like You say Blue, I say Black... but that wasn't the case... I just felt something more powerful in my soul... I didn't want to be tied down to a script... I didn't want to be on other peoples time and I sure as hell didn't want to be told what to teach and how to teach it... I had my own way of processing learning...

AND boy does it show...

Neither one of us like to be told what to do... 

Kyle and I did a lot together... We built houses together... We started businesses together... We traveled together... We were what my third favorite daughter calls us... "The Dream Team"...

Kyle taught me how to drive a loader and that was cool... I got to do things with Kyle that I never could imagine... He took me on guys trips... He taught me how to herd cattle... 

One time... it was raining and we had some cows and he said, "Sadie, get out we have to put the cows back in." I was like... WAIT WHAT!! It's freaking midnight and I am in my BIRKENSTOCKS... 

Never mess with a woman and her Birkenstocks... But I was the obedient kind of wife... and I LOVED pleasing Kyle... I mean if HE needed ME, I was there... I seriously just wanted to BE his PROJECT!!

And I was always up for a service project... so here I am... AHH AHHH AHH... I am yelling, my arms are waving, it is raining and pouring outside and I am yelling things at these cows because I am PISSED!!

But we got them in and we still laugh about our crazy adventures He got us into...

The kids loved it... they had to have.. they had a front row seat to our MOVIE... and boy was it a show...

After 11 years of marriage... and a huge blow up... Kyle looks at me and says... "I do not like you." I said, FINALLY!!! Finally... I've been waiting 11 years for this... NOW WHAT...

I mean in my HEAD... why would anyone want to be married to me... I look back and realize I did everything I could to get him to Hate me... BUT!! 

I was really at a point in my life that I knew I was fine... I became so strong mentally and emotionally... that I was so grateful for his honesty... It didn't hurt me one bit...

As a little girl... I always told myself I would be an Awesome mom but I would be a terrible wife... I think I felt that way because of my own personal experiences... I knew I was stubborn... I was told my whole life by my siblings how rude I was... my childhood wasn't the most positive speaking... I didn't have the best relationship with my dad and I definitely wasn't daddy's little girl... so I always felt like Men would not take well to me... 

TBH... I really didn't think anyone would ever want to marry me... so when Kyle took the leap of faith... and as naive as he was... I was like YES YES YES!! Even my DAD jumped for Joy the day we got engaged... :)

But at the 11 year mark... and after probably verbally assaulting one another... we decided to give it four more years... and that has stuck ever since... We actually renew our agreement every five years...

It works for us... it keeps us accountable...

You probably wonder how the kids handled this... Because by now... I had 4 then 5 then 6... 

WELL they can write their own version and their own book one day if needed...

I wasn't proud of my behaviour... I was ashamed daily of me... I was appalled at myself and couldn't believe that that person even existed inside of me... I mean really!! I'm a Christian... I believe in Jesus Christ and I was NOT acting like him or anyone close to him at times...

BUT I knew I was human... I knew I was trying my best... I mean we moved 28 times... 3 times because my brother n law stole our rent money and we had no choice but to find shelter...

It has been a wild 23 years... BUT BUT BUT!!! I wouldn't trade it for the world... YES... I made mistakes... YES... I said things I REGRET!! NO... I don't wish this on anyone...

Infact, my rule of thumb is ADDICTION, ABUSE & ADULTERY is complete grounds for Divorce... and believe me... WE Thought about it...

But something inside us kept us together... Maybe it was our stubbornness... Maybe it was our passion... or just MAYBE it was our belief in Each other that it could be GOOD one day!!

One day I visited my Bishop... He was the only one that helped me... He said, "Sadie... based on your need and my prayers... I feel you have the right to leave HIM... I was like FINALLY!! Finally someone heard my cry... someone could see what nobody else wanted to see... because Kyle was very good at making me look crazy... then the BUT came!!

BUT... what if... what if HE changes... what if HE repents... what if HE starts new...

I am such a sucker for REPENTING...I mean if I really want to follow Jesus Christ I need to forgive just as he did... Kyle wasn't hurting me physically... HE wasn't an angry person... He wasn't hurting the kids... infact, HE was so good to the kids... His only problem was HE only knew HOW to WORK... He didn't know how to be family man... He just didn't know... 

so NOW what!! Do I take my 50K and leave and start over with a new set of problems... or do I keep starting over with him... Do I keep saying I'm sorry... Do I keep waking up in the morning with anxiety..

Afterall.. Kyle is the one who made me strong... Kyle is the one that believed in me when nobody else did.. Kyle was the one that taught me about affirmations... Kyle is the one that sparked my fire of creativity... Kyle is the ONE!!

HE was ALWAYS the ONE!!

I guess I stayed... LOL... I had two more kids with my baby daddy... and I have the greatest kids on earth... 

Kyle and I haven't been easy parents... Kyle and I haven't made relationships look fun... BUT we have never been to counseling... we have never been on medication... we have literally FOUGHT our way though this life together.. Kyle would always say.. "Sadie, YOU have to LOVE the fight."

He didn't say you have to love to fight... YOU have to LOVE THE FIGHT...

Kyle genuinely wasn't a fighter... He was consistently triggered by me... and for that I am sorry... 

We have supported each other through the good and the bad... He was seen me at my weakest and I have seen him at his meanest... LOL...

And I love him for being him... This is nothing that anybody needs to know to even believe... BUT I needed to share this story because to MAXIMIZE YOU EVERYDAY... YOU have to TELL the TRUTH...

The Truth... I hate being married... 

The Truth... I hate myself for hating being married

The Truth... I hate that I didn't know myself before I was married 

The Truth... I love this LIFE!!

The Truth... I know WHY I am here!

The Truth... I love KYLE almost obsessively (the cause of fights-I was to protective & Jealous at times)

The Truth... I love being a MOM...

The Truth... I am here on earth to LEARN

The Truth... I am beyond GRATEFUL Kyle has kept me

The Truth... I am learning to forgive 

The Truth... I am so much stronger then I was 10 years ago...

The Truth... Kyle was willing to love me for me... 

The Truth... That makes me Happy...

SO all in all... Maximize YOU was NOT created for YOU... It was a safe place created for me... an outlet that I could create and bring YOU into a space that would allow me to GIVE back to what so many of you have already given me...

It was a place that I could write positive notes without ANYone knowing the PAIN I was feeling...

THIS story isn't even close to being told... but it's started... and it feels SOOO GOOD!!

I am not perfect... BUT everyday when I sit down to write... I feel God's hand on my heart... I feel him guiding me in my posts... I feel his love for ALL of YOU...

I am HARD!! and I will STAY HARD... (another lesson for another day)... BUT I FEEL...

Never mistake my kindness for weakness... I will keep writing and maximizing YOU... 

Kyle and I still fight... BUT now we fight in style... WE FIGHT NAKED!! 

And we still disagree... and HE still thinks I backstab him when I take the kids side... But make no MISTAKE... I am HIS QUEEN & HE is MY KING...

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